World oF illuSion

2010-01-15T23:10:00.003+08:00

2009-12-31T00:41:00.002+08:00

Went TO CWP with my parents... eat and shop around. My dad Bought me a NetBooK ! WeeTs. he paid first but i still have to pay him back -.- . after that went home put all the stuff, then went to Sing K with Ken and Alan. After that Went home for dinner. Mum finally cook. haha. Tml Working... Sian

2009-12-19T23:54:00.002+08:00

15 / 12 / 09
Went to Orchard With Andre and Rs, Shop shop around and take a look at those new shopping central, A luck we have when we reach there, its raining cats and dog. Damn weather.

2009-12-19T23:28:00.003+08:00

14 / 12 / 09
CLASS IPG GRADUATION CHALET !

PLAYING WII !

2009-12-19T23:08:00.002+08:00

Took some Pics for myself. NON-Photoshoped.

8 / 12 / 09
Went to Suntec to Get a Watch for myself. [ FOSSIL ] for $235. That hurts so much, but anyway, i will take care of it.
After That went to bugis to have Chicken Rice with kw, such a "GOOD" Recommendation

2009-12-05T21:38:00.003+08:00

5 DEC 2009

Sorry Guys to have not been blogging on November =(( Have been working real hard and dead tired. Not even have the energy to blog, Today is an exception ^^. because i really feel like saying everything out. lolx... Graduated, Now is the Time to be independent for real. Work for yourself,for your family. Relationship can slowly, because next week i will be changing into a Full-Timer, Which i only get 1 day off per week. So, i think not many girl nowaday can tahan meeting their BF only 1 day or 2 day per week. So i guess i'll pass that to fate, or Let Nature Take Its Course. =) Being a Part-Timer is tired enough, Let alone Full-timer, I guess i'll only have to Concentrate on Work, Not good at hooking girls. So maybe just chiong work, til i go NS. Get all the salary to Groom myself. gonna Throw away all those kiddy Shirt of mine. it looks sux to me now.

2009-10-23T22:46:00.002+08:00

23 / 10 / 09

Im gonna pluck off all my hair that's left on my head ! have been busying with my school project ! SO STRESS LUH ! so many things to be done in a few seconds which is like, impossible? less than 5 weeks and im gonna Graduate From ITE. Finally i can throw off the Uniform which people alway had bad impression on. Phew.. gonna Do well on Presentation and get good marks. So bored now, Im Waiting for Death Notes at 11.30 ! so bored for now, Guess im gonna get some Fresh air on my balcony now. ^ ^

Tomorrow is a WeekEnd ! And im working on both saturdays and sunday =( Do visit me if you readers are Free =) im Working at ParkWay Parade. " Toby's Dessert Asylum " On the Second Floor, And i'll serve you with my best =)

2009-10-18T23:03:00.001+08:00

Sorry so long never Blog , cos school busy Plus working also on weekend. TIRED ! gonna slp now bye !

2009-09-30T11:34:00.001+08:00

30 / 09 / 09

Had a fucking bad stomachache This morning, somehow walking out of the toilet with leg wobbling =( scary !

2009-09-30T11:29:00.002+08:00

26 / 9 / 09

Had a movie with Dinasour, We watch Phobia and it was scary enough for me, Its 1 Stone meet with 2 Rock, Even tho the movie was scary enough, but This Dino, who was sitting beside me, scare me even more !

2009-09-24T02:44:00.002+08:00

There Are many ways of looking at a things, Lets Say Picture, If you can solve all this just by 1 look, You are nuts. Lets put it This way, We say... There are many ways of looking at a situation. Human Beings, we, dun think Before we act, That somehow causes some troubles for ourselves.

What can you see from this picture? Note Down on my Online Chatbox.
i will tell you are you right or wrong. =)

This is an Eye Examination Chart for you to test your eyes. Can you see the words in the picture? I bet you can’t see it. Try to increase the distance from the monitor until you can see the words.

How many legs does this elephant have? We all know elephant has only 4 legs, but in this illusion picture, you might see the elephant has more than 4 legs. Illusion really make us having headache and dizzy. Don’t you agree? Tell us how many legs do you see in this optical illusion picture.

How many black dots can you see in this illusion picture? Hard to count it because the black dots and white dots are flashing? Actually, there are no black dots at all. Try to see one dot to one dot slowly, then you will know there is no black dot.

There are seven dolphins in this picture. Try to find them out.

2009-09-23T21:12:00.001+08:00

23 / 09 / 09

Hey people, Dun mind about the past Posting alrights. that is all bullshit and its the past, Look forward for the future =)) so dun mind my OLD posting ya? =))

2009-09-23T18:50:00.001+08:00

23 / 09 / 09

HEY PEOPLE ! WAHAHHA ! MY BLOG IS 3/4 DONE !
PLS COME FREQUENCY FOR MY UPDATES OR U CAN USE THE CHAT TOO ! ITS ONLINE CHAT. =))

2009-07-31T22:04:00.002+08:00

i miss her...

today went bugis, sebastian wana see her, i ask him and joanne to go, i dun wana go, dun wana spoil her mood while she's working..

Not in a good mood, scolded my mum juz now i guess. telling her to go care abt kor den. haiis

i miss you
i miss you
i miss you.

2009-07-16T21:04:00.003+08:00

im missing u so badly now...so lost, so mess up now.
is there realli nth i could do now to get back our feelings?
you were my everything. now tat you're gone...i have nothing left
all i have is my feelings for you.
i dream of you everyday.. dreamt of our past, our future...
i really needed you back..
i realise how important you were to me.
you, who created my guide to life..
you, who created the smile on me..
you, who crave your name on my heart..

I can't sleep, I can't live without you by my side. So cold, so lost without you as my guide. You made me realise I've nothing, nothing without you.

Could be your eyes, could be your smile. could be the way you freed my mind. your precious touch caressed my soul. you gave me everything I need,

Please give me one more try for the sake of our love.
Let's give it one more chance cos I can't give you up.
I can't live one more day without you in my arms
I could never find another like you.

All the pain we feel inside,
you relied on me and i have let u down.
but i promise you,i will be the best i can,
i noe we could still revive the love we had left.

I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away, I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run.

Could be the lies, could be my pride,
bringing me so wild that you leave me.
Could be the times I wasn't there. And all the nights we didn't share,
and now you're gone.

I wanna start this over again

Gene, i just cant go on without u by my side.

I try not to think about the pain I feel inside but everywhere seems to be concern wid u
Did you know you used to be my queen? All the days you spent with me Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

im breaking down...I can't take this blow..I need somewhere to goI need you I'm so restless
I don't know what to do
We've had our rough times Fighting all night
And now you're slipping away

Give me this route to change, please. To make the wrongs become right,
I knew it would last From the first time I first looked in your eyes you buries my fears And I will cherish this love ever more

You know it's not easy to do, turning my back on me and you but Gene I need someone there Who will love me and care for my life everything that could gone wrong has gone wrong at some time Now I can see the light It was love at first sight And I cant bring myself to let you go

tears keep falling, when i see your face and it keeps me going
if I get lost, your light's would guide me and I know that you can take me home
i know that people might say we're never going to make it
But I wun give up hope to get through this

Without you I go through the motions
Without you it's just not quite the same
Without you I don't want to go out

There's nothing I could ever say to change the things I did
But I promise youI'll make it up to you
Take me back to yesterday
I will never crossed that line
I changed across of time
I can never live this way
If only you forgive
We'll start again
With all my heart.

GENEVIEVE TOH.

I'll be waiting
Gene, give me one last try

2009-07-14T20:34:00.005+08:00

14 / 7 / 09

12am+ reaching 1. was seeking jamie for advice, told her wad happen. She preach me for about 2 hours. thru her preach i realli did understand alot and how gene felt, & where the mistake lies... haiis...i felt so ashame of myself. Jamie told me she would help me talk to her.

today totally got no mood...slept in class for the whole day, Thanks Jamie for preaching / Lecturing me.. or else i wouldnt have noe how she have felt and wad i done is a serious mistake...but haiis.....its too late...she would nv wants to turn back..

This was the last time i went out with her, and she said she nv wants to see me anymore on the next day on train....haiis..

The Pictures below this sentence were left un-post after wad has happen to us....accompanied her to airport for interview =\

2009-07-13T10:17:00.003+08:00

GOOD MORNING

Woke up at 8+... which definitely will not late for school today ! but i was woken up by a call by shaun saying today's morning class was cancelled. omfg... no choice but to use comp cos i cant slp back... mum woke up and she say she's going down for a coffee. She will buy packed food for me =) which means i could save money on breakfast...

Haiis.. looking at the time, guess she's also awake now preparing to go work ba....miss her alot.. hope that she could go out wid me on her off day. talked to the bear which i bought for her as a gift last night.. mummy is not around, u both muz take care of yourself, i cant tc of u guys alone... haiis... in 2 more hours im going to prepare for school le...bored..last time i was planning, she work, i school, den after school i still can go fetch her... but now, she dun wana see me...haiis. type til here ba..i not realli in the mood to type more..

*Night*

wad mum bought for me dis morning breakfast was a waste... i got no appetite..

For the whole day in school i was doing nothing...so do everyone... No appetite to eat. til now.. 12.57am. all of my classmate was also dead.. so quiet today, so unlike of them...

Reach home, kor ask if i have eaten, i said yes.. because i got no appetite to eat.. and is afraid he would ask me to go eat.. so i said yes.. haiis... its been the 3rd day... and i do realli miss her alot...lying on bed til my dad went to slp...and now continuing dis post...

2009-07-12T22:31:00.002+08:00

its being 2 days i have not eaten anything..just duno why..im hungry, but im not in the mood to eat.. No appetite.. having keep thinking wad i could do..

today was somehow a bored day... Dun wana stress her or spoil her mood when she was walking.. so the whole day i din msg her...im so not use to it not having her in contact..

Le chuan noes im not in a good mood, ask me out for a talk.. there's nothing for me to talk.. he brought shaun, kai wei and his girlfriend along...shaun didnt noe wads happening to me.. he keep asking why i was so dead, am i on depression.. i just kept quiet...and told him.. relation ship problem, he then ask me to share wad happen.

le chuan noes something wrong with me le...but he duno how to keep shaun quiet...things started reflecting into my mind and my tears almost dripped out..i keep holding on not to let it drip..kai wei saw it and drag me to a toilet ask me if wan drip, drip at toilet...i wash my eyes onli.. den went back to meet them...

after awhile i go off le cos no mood to be out.. went home..maybe shaun was right, im kind of having depression.. for days i have no mood to reli do anything, even eat, i cant even bring myself to eat.. no appetite.. haiis..

2009-07-12T00:33:00.006+08:00

today do nth.... 4 to 5+ i prepared and went to city hall to find her...when she sounds abit angry, and say dun wana see me, i stop at bishan.. after that when she sent a message saying she can wait, but she said its for her fren, but i have already gotten up the train.... to city hall.
(Gen... if u're reading this, i am very sorry, i wanted to fetch u home but i duno wad could i say so i say i was out with my friends but in fact i was at home...)

bii,

i never wanted to quarrel with you when i met u at city hall...

i just wanted to fetch u home. Not having u to be alone on train..

u once told me, u cant stand loneliness, everywhere u go, u niid some1 by ur side.

thats why i went to fetch u as its Sun lu. but i never wanted to talk about this...

maybe u're stress over ur work or wad den u flare up ba...i just wanted to find a topic to talk, to keep us occupied when on our way home so time will past faster...

i wanted to give u some time alone....
its not that i everyday wana meet u.. but because today im passing by ur there, tats why i came over to meet u as we can go home together..i noe everything was my fault... baby i noe u hate doors to be open but im still tryina get into ur world and u still hab to guide me into ur world..

bii, dun give up hope uh...please..
im willing to do anything to salavge our bonds...

you were the one who teaches me wad life is suppose to be,

now that im without u, how am i going to live my life...

you were my everything, now that u are gone..i'm left with nothing.
(no souls, no heart, im numb. to sad or to cry but not to smile.)

2009-07-11T01:40:00.002+08:00

10 / 7 / 09

Woke up and i went to school... reached by 10 and i get to do my stuff... the workshop was damn hot.. i keep standing on the fan becaus i dun wana sweat too much cos meeting bii later... 12.15 i went off to take mrt and meet bii at novena mrt station, after that we got down at somerset. accompany bii take her uniform...

after that we went for our lunch and to movie... she has already watch it with her friends..well, nobody to watch with me so i asked her to watch wid me again.. lols she looks damn tired.. after the movie we went walk walk awhile den go le...haiis sad..i dun wana leave de but i have to.. she's meeting ben. took the lonely ride back to marsilling and to home.. she told me she would go back at 8+ but in the end 10+ lols. duno wad she's thinking, knowing herself so tired and is working tml yet go til so late. i also dun have the right to care anyway i guess. im not her who anymore...haiis.

she's got my intention all wrongly... bii i nv has the intention to made u choose this way.. u got it all wrong...not convenient for me to explain here anyway but try standing in my shoes and think pls.. i really dun have the intention of doing those things and making u to choose tat way...

i love you.
i need you.
i miss you.

i miss your lovely face,
i miss your cute expression,
i miss your smile, i miss u
i miss your voice,
i miss your scoldings.(when i was blur)
i miss your hitting.
i miss your lovely action,
that could melt my heart.

Bii i realli need u back uh.. i realli realli dun have tat intention to made u choose tat way de...

2009-07-08T19:12:00.002+08:00

Just came back from school 2 hours ago... was damn tired as i slept onli for 3 hours... woke up and go school, halfway in the mrt phone rang, saying first lesson was cancel. i was like.. wtf? should have slept more...

after that WorkShop hours were bored and teacher let us off at 4.30.. so reach home around 5.. was messaging with Bii, she went for job interview.. 3 interview at 1 shot lolx.. at Shu uemura. after that she never reply liao...

She replied me around 6+ saying she was watching movie with friend...hmm i asked her wad movie, she say transformer... and i was like.. wtf? tat time ask her go watch she dun wan say not nice den now go and watch with friend... izit dun wan watch wid me... but she told me it was her friend that has bought her tickets...so.. well, wad more can i say? nobody to accompany me watch the show anymore.. haiis.

FUCK IT LA IM SO FED UP WITH MY LIFE ! FUCK FUCK FUCK ! WADS WITH ME ! WO HEN FAN ! MY HEAD IS GONNA EXPLODE ! ITS DAMN PAIN LUH !

she's not with me, im so lost, so mess up in my life...

2009-07-08T02:59:00.002+08:00

7 / 7 / 09

ha ! today woke up late and went to school.... everything was still same...bored bored bored... theory lesson all the way til class end.. sux... Mrt was pack and i board the 4th train. awwman.. the train stinks like hell with perspiring smell...

Met Bii Bii at causeway and went to look for our stuff, she reach popular and she decided not to buy yet, went down to HOME FIX for my stuff, SOLD OUT ! or should i put it, they dun have wad im looking for.. bii ask if i have eaten, No, and i dun realli have the appetite but i wanted to have a meal with her so we went to BK but to no available seats. so we went to have LONG JOHN. lol i was eating quite slowly as her phone keep ringing so i have to keep down with her speed.... heh...

the reason why i wanted to have the meal with her even tho i dun have appetite is because i wanted to see her longer, For her moving back to her house is a good thing, she doesnt have to suffer finacial problem with me, i noe we got to face everything together but i wanted her to have the best life. doesnt mean not being together is good uh. but i wish we could still be in a relationship altho we're stayin apart. but it isnt the case now. haiis.

upon hearing she's going to ben house, flare !! 100 degree of my jealousy rise up ! but i couldnt do anything, as i said, we're not an item anymore. and she once said, there's no turning back for her.. how i wish we could still be like last time... ha.

Was about to do my assignment when she said she wanted to go ben's house for research, i switch on my dad's laptop and stop my work to search for her. Just hate it when she wants to go to ben's house. @=<

actually i was damn tired and wanted to slp after doing my work lolx now is 3am already and im still up, lols. halfway thru she gave up. i noe the stress she's going thru, if she carries on, i think she will go mad. so its 1 good point she gave up shu uemura's interview. lolx.

Sarcrifise-ing some sleep for her, helpin her in any way i could is all i can do now...

2009-07-07T02:27:00.003+08:00

Monday

6 / 7 / 09

Today is the first day of school, i should mean, first day of a new term, new module =) was going great but tired.. boring also. had alot of talks with some of them who went for the china trip which they shared with me today... other than then tat, nth else..

morning was life skills lesson. after that bored bored bored, new teacher in charge told us to buy tools for ourselve and i did, at night, i mean late evening. reach home at 9.45 because i tot i could have see someone i wanted to. reach home, sms with her...

i duno wads wrong with me..i duno wad has become of me, to have landed me in this state.i duno why, i just flare up, anger rise in my heart when she told me she's going out with ben,but wad can i do...i am not her anyone anymore...staying til 9.45.. i could have gone off earlier but i stood outside causeway, walking here and there when i see the time is coming, for me. i went home...

worried about her late going home, because she's having job interview the next day, dun wana her being a Panda in the interview room( that might leave the interviewer a bad impression) i was baking some cakes, when she message me she's on her way home, was around 10 or 10.10 if i dun rmb wrongly. i rush and stood by at my balcony to look out for her.(where she just leave opposite my block) around 11 or 11.15 den i saw her,when ask her about what took her so long to reach home, she said she was having a chat with ben... i got so angry but yet cant do anything...

who am i now....i dun even reconize myself, knowing myself anymore.. i wasnt wad i use to be anymore...i noe she could took care of herself, but i duno why i just cant stand it when she meets up with ben, or any other guy? Ben once said to her " when u're single den we contact ba" which means he dun really love her uh, he just wana play around, if not he wouldnt have said that. Now that they're in contact, i duno why i would just throw tantrumt.

i noe she's not going to turn back anymore. well,all i can do now is to look out, or look at her from faraway where she wont noe. but i noe, 1 message from her, climbing uphills, or going through big waves, i would still do it.

i really duno wad have become of me...maybe because i hasnt reach the age whereby looking for jobs, not knowing how stress she was? Putting more burden on her when she needs me most? how am i to forget all the beautiful memories we had?

People say time heals, to me, it heals shit because the wonderful memories we had is not erase-able. the smile u put on your face, the jealousy look u gave me, the face when you're crying, faces whereby u look so lovely, so cute that makes me speechless to describe anything. its just so sweet that i could melt.

Time is not turning back, i noe..all i would do now is to look out for her, standing faraway to see her, (if i could, if i noe where she is)just to in case she needs any help. Stand by her, look out for her message where by she could find me if she realli need anything urgently...
I'm sorry.

2009-06-30T17:27:00.004+08:00

Feeling so dead tired now omg... Just came back Cso. finally done with it.. duno if i got to do make up hours. let the PO calculate the hour i have done den. wasted almost 2 weeks of my Holiday doing Cso, (Community service). Ha, anyway i have sign on as volunteer at the old folks home, the folks there were cute and friendly, starting they were quite fierce with me on the third day they begun to became friendly with me =))

Standing whole day long there making my leg go jelly every day i reach home.. Bii have been looking for jobs while i was doing my Cso, Stayin at my home awaiting for emails to come. she's employed by Bobbi Brown but she's fred and stress up with clothings. Anyway, Finally End of my CSO.

but of course i'll go back and visit the folks. heh. Bii joined me in the middle of my CSO. thats so sweet of her. i know im the one pulling her there =) but i guess she doesnt mind =] Quite some time nvr blog having being bored of computers. Onli using it for research or finding out school assessment..

HERE'S SOME PICTURES FOR READERS !
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She's playing with bubbles ! =P

(Back to Childhood)

2009-06-23T19:37:00.001+08:00

juz started my CSO today... damn boring. omg. reach home at 5 and go home.

SIAN. everyday is the same..
stay at home yawn.

u got temper ppl also got k.

2009-06-17T18:06:00.012+08:00

Hey people, its been some time since i last blog =), hmm cos of school plus accompany my girlfriend, Genevieve =) hmm its my final year and alot of stupid projects are coming up. making me feel damn busy the whole month of june, but cant be compared to the upcoming month.

Got to rush all my work and my PortFolio. from year 1 to year 2. yawn.. hmm some pictures i gonna upload and not gonna type more, heh Just view my pics and u'll noe where i've been and wad i have been doing lately xP. Have been going out with Bii lately, hmm bugis, Temple, and same old place -.- causeway point, for movie, heh.

Went to bugis with bii bii, to pray for each other and people around us =))

Xiao Sin & Xiao Pii. xD
Specially for bii bii, A gift from Me To You.

Outside my school ! Bii accompany me to my school there. Went to library, i mean she. And i went to school lolx. During lunch hour, i accompanied her for lunch cum dinner.

BUGIS FEAST ! heh (below)

Went For a movie with Bii. And toast box, as usual =)

Went to causeway with Bii, slack around....

Look like Doll uh. xP

Acting like a Piggy -oo-

Took when i was on the way to school =)

Lunch with Bii when she accompanied me to school =) PEPPER LUNCH

2009-06-11T14:43:00.006+08:00

Hey people im going to post this picture which we took very long time ago le but no scanner... heh. i now in school and i just scanned in with school scanner. =)) will post at night again.

2009-06-09T22:54:00.004+08:00

u're telling me u're so confused

u cant make up your mind.

u're having a fear in me.

but i believe, for you and me

the sun will shine one day.

so i'll just wait on

and pray u have a change of heart.

In your arms,

the dawn is breaking.

face to face, and a thousand miles apart.

i'll try my best to make you see,

there's hope beyond the pain.

if we give enough

if we learn to trust.

i know if i could find the words

to touch you deep inside,

u'd give our dream just one more chance.

dun let it be our last good bye please.

In your letter, u said

with this break up

you're pretty sure i'll be happy.

but you're wrong.

i cant bring myself to do anything,

im like a Kite floating in the sky

With broken strings.

2009-06-09T22:00:00.003+08:00

8th JUNE 2009.

nth much to be said as its as usual, went to school and back to school...
bii's stomach was pain so i went down to eat with mum..
went home after that and den came down to coffee shop again with Bii to buy Takeaway for her. went back home and watch her eat. juz something happen at midnight and cause me didnt sleep for the whole night. we quarrelled, and this time she chooses her option, haiis... She wants to leave this relationship.

i didnt get to contact her for the whole of 9th JUNE 2009 which is today. because she doesnt have a sim. haiis...This early morning i missed her so much..be4 i bath, i took a cig, while i was smking, i was having my eyes close and i handed the cig out, tot she was there, ha, so silly..she's already not around...how i wish i can gain back her love.. i smile to myself, thinking how silly i was. Maybe its because im not use to not having her around by my side ba. went to school this early morning without any sleep.

and slept in comp lab for 2 hours. after school went to meet probation officer. after that went back home bath, to hab dinner..be4 i reach home, i saw her house's lights were all off. i tot she went to coffee shop to help her mum, after i eat, i rush to her mum's workplace, hoping to see her. i noe she doesnt wants to see me, maybe?

so i walk outside and look into the shop. but she wasnt around. Was just hoping to see a minut, or so called seconds of her is juz enough to content my heart..she wasnt around and i went back home...when i was downstairs my house. i saw tat her lights were on, muz be sleeping bah this pighead.

ha... Bii, if someday u were to be reading this, i juz wana tell u that,i cant live my life to the fullest without you. i miss you..i wants you back and i will wait. U too, i hope u will wait for me, when im ready for u i will come to u.

2009-06-05T01:45:00.002+08:00

i first met this girl on a coffee shop, she caught my attention while i was having a meal, a chat, a drink. i pointed her to my friend, how does he think she is, he said not bad, i wanted badly to have her number, but i couldn't bring up my courage. So useless of me.

In the end, my friend took her number, and he gave me wrong number of hers. Any Motive of him i might not noe,

However, i felt quite sad when he mention that she went up to her house for room door opening.

But i told myself, seldom girls could get my attention and allowed myself to take number, Having my heart to beat so un-usual, so i got myself to wait for her hand.

Somehow, they broke up.. i felt kind of relieve cause i dun wan her to get toyed.

We were Friends and we meet and chat more often after that, but i just dunno how to get closer to her.

On my Birthday, i drove out all my courage, the first girl i ever confess to.

Told her and she thought i was joking, quite sad for me.. but i bear with it.. i said i would gave her time to think, she answered me on the 3rd day after my birthday.

i was Up to the moon, as in, happy. =) i disappeared for 3weeks, i dunno how she's doing, but while im away, i think alot, ppl around me told off negative comments. i didnt cared and i just told myself she would wait for me.

And she really did. My thought/Judgement was right. Through days passes til now, i can see she put in alot of affort in this relationship.

We did went through alot of obstacle to have make it to this day, which is today,

5th JUNE 2009

Me To You :

i love you Genevieve baby. <33

2009-06-05T01:05:00.002+08:00

ha, woke up at 11am this morning, i noe im late for sch.. hmm have been late for quite few days le... Wei Siang also keep calling me Up asking why never come, or alway late, hais sian... reach school around 12+ and i called shaun up... he din come to school wth..den i go sch...

bo bian go eat school de food which sucks alot. Went back class and yes of cos i bought back-up food of cos haha 4 nugget and 2 drumplet. den after that slack in lab and touch up abit of my powerpoint..JQ called angela to buy food yet she bought wrong, ha, den i exchange 1 of my drumplet wid him cos the 1 i eating is the 1 he wan so i sacrifies 1 ^^.

after that i went off at 5.30 cos teacher haben come den after that i go le... cos dun wana wait for teacher to come. Wanted to reach home early to accompany Bii. called her up and told her im late for home...hmm noes she's sensitive so i didnt blame her on suspecting if im lying =)

the train was packed.. i found seat onli when im on woodlands. sadded. reached home at 6.20. ha i did notice the time..

heh, Bii still sleeping, so cute of her when she is sleeping =D. i guess i woke her up or something, after that we had our dinner and slack off in my rooms to edit our pictures maybe for our blog skin. ^^. after that my dad slept, and she helped me to edit my blog =) Thanks Bii xD i love you.

Bii, i noe you're still sensitive over me,

but i'll prove to you this time round,

you might be reading my post right after i posted up =)

sometimes ur sensitive makes me feel im important,
which i felt glad over it. hmm well, sometimes im quite jealous
over ur buddies uh =X. but after wad u said to me just now after u saw my (shouldn't be showned) face, ha, i'm more of relieve =)

i Do get jealous sometimes. no ppl wont get jealous,
so i hope u wun be angry over it.

its not that i dun trust u uh, i do trust u alot.

2009-06-01T14:16:00.008+08:00

Will post ytd's pic later or tml....rushing my project now.... =)) all this was last week's picture.. ytd pic i will post it at night or at late evening =))

2009-05-19T11:42:00.004+08:00

For the whole Night Bii and me nvr sleep. Til Morning rise and we went to have our breakfast at 166. after that there comes the idea from Bii of Going to the Library. haha i agreed immediately because there's some books which i also need to borrow. Bii and me went home to have a bath and she helped me to styled my hair..looks cool ! haha.

when we were on our way, i pulled bii to my side as i saw something on the drain. At first, i saw a bird head, i tot it was a dead birdie. After i took a closer look, its a BABY BIRD ! omg lolx. the process of having the bird to climb to my cardigan was Scary yet funny. hahaha. we shouted when it flag its feather. hahaafter that we leave it on the tree.

and we journey-ed to causeway to library. As we were so-called mouth-itchy. we bought 2 curry puff which each is sadin and 1 is curry.. hmm the sadin was spicy and we both said the same thing together, "wa head damn itchy". haha after that we headed to library. read read read and i doze off. ahha bii woke me up and we left after awhile cos she see me like very tired.

after that we went to Sakae to eat Udon. if i not wrong i think Bii is order Tori-Udon and i had Curry-Udon. heh. after that we went to toastBox to slack. din took any pics there and we went home. It was Very sudden when we reach the First Bus stop, Bii ask me about the bird and i suddenly rmb. we press the bell juz in time and alight to search for the bird. we did found it ahha. it was Bii who found it actually. it was on the drain. looks so pitiful =(( we brought to my house downstair de tree to set it free.

and we went home to studied. I was dozing off while reading haha den Bii ask me go bath den go rest. den after that we lie on bed to study and soon we slept. the next day i woke up, i was reminded of the bird and i look through my balcony de window, its not moving. as i was rushing for time for school, i told Bii to take a look later and i went off to school.

2009-05-16T21:44:00.002+08:00

Phew...Everything was over, ytd Bii stayed at my house...we was alright onli this afternoon. =) ytd we took syrup and was blur...haha but when we woke up i told her abt everything she had said when she was blur, she started to smile...and we chat and chat and we're alright =) although she nv mention abt forgiving but i can see that she had. xD went downstairs to buy dinner and had dinner with Bii and dad. now watching movie... not doing much. will post again when there's news. =))

2009-05-15T18:41:00.003+08:00

had a quarrel with bii last night, and she deleted all her pics and her post(blog) . haiis. she said she wants to give up le...

because,

i went to meet friend without telling her. haiis.

a classmate of mine told me, but i din cheat on her why does she gets so angry?hmm well, i duno.

She doesnt likes to be kept on things. well, i guess i done a big mistake? but i realli dun wish to see us separating. she packed her stuff and she went off today morning when im going to sch and tell me to take care, asking me to find some1 better....Bii, i dun wan.

i onli wants you.
i onli miss you.
i onli think of you.
i onli have you in heart.

i realli dun wish to see this happening coming between us, whereby leading to separate. haiis. can u give me a chance uh?juz dis last chance i promise i wun repeat it again uh. we have been through so much, im sure u also dun bear to have this kind of things happening right?

2009-05-15T18:05:00.005+08:00

ha ! skip school for bii bii cos she going to work soon le... actually went to sch but my friend chase me out asking me nt to let bii bii wait so long cos she downstair waiting for me haha. after that we went to Library to find books. Went to food court to have Pepper lunch and took some pics.

She noes i will see girl and she dun allow me to look other place haha den she keep saying LOOK AT ME LOOK AT ME ahha as in onli can see her hahaha. den after that we duno where to go we juz roam in j8 awhile den after that we went to ToastBox to have Tea and Pictures. =)

after that we take train back to woodlands. Went to library and re-new my library card =D. looking for books we want, i found wad i wan, but the detail inside all i already noe le =(( have our Late Lunch at MOS Burger..hahaha i keep making bii laugh haha. we were on YELLOW topics lolx. after that we went back home. =))

THE PICTURES ARE ARRANGE ACCORDING FROM BELOW TO TOP AS WAD I POST/TYPE. THANKS

*Moutain Ocean Sun Burger* @ Woodlands Causeway PoinT

*Finding each of us's interest =)* @ Woodlands Regional Library

*Ice Tea-O* @ ToastBox

*PeppeR LUNCH* at j8 Food CourT

2009-05-15T17:57:00.001+08:00

Hey guys... i have edited some pics.. haha. just few cos i dun realli like to edit tho, cos i duno wad to put so maybe wait for her together edit =)

2009-05-10T03:59:00.008+08:00

HOME SWEET HOME ~ !!
some of the pics will be post again due to Editing, thanks!

Ju-On?

Ahh~ My ghostie.

When we are going home =D

Went to Swensen and have our Regular Meal ! haha last time din get to take the pictures of da CHICKEN BAKED RICE. haha And our TopLess 5. Took lotsa pictures... So.. Slowly browse ba!

Slept till 4+ in the late noon and was awake by some noise under my block. hmm woke up and was actually intending to heat up porridge but it was already quite warm so i din do so, bii bii went to bath and i prepare the plates tat we're gonna use for our " lunch ". lolx. after " lunch " i went to bath and prepare.

2009-05-06T22:50:00.002+08:00

After school rush back home.. Prepare, Have a quick Shower and then meet Bii =) she dress quite gorgeous. haha im not lack behind either. i dress fomal. went to causeway with Bii and have swensen for our dinner, din order ice cream as we thought of going to Gelare for the ice-cream.

in the end we went to ToastBox to have Tea. LOL haha after that bloated. dun wan ice cream le haha. den same thought came to our Mind. PHOTO !! haha we went to take NeoprinT. haha [ Sorry that i forgotten to take pics in SWENSEN ! ] Bii ask me to help edit Pics. Omg i sux in it haha but i did try to edit, onli the background and the surrounding. =) after that we went to Cold Storage to get wad we need at home.

[ bii : i hope u Enjoyed today =) to me its quite an occasion =) so i hope u enjoy it today =) loves. ]

2009-05-06T00:36:00.003+08:00

This few top Pictures are onli for mature PasserBy~ HAHA This is How we Prevent Swine FLU ! If you care for the one u love... Kiss with ur mask on!

World Peace to Swine Flu. say Peaceee~ !!

KEEP AWAY FROM SWINE FLU !!!! And LOOK , The mask can cover OUR FACE !

Sorry No pics of before food , Onli After we complete the food ! heh

Look how she's gonna eat ! =P

We're Sick =(( i mean me.. D=

Waiting For my Turn At Poly-Clinic With Bii. Look at the tape on her nose ! hahaha ! so cute xD

STolen ShoT wahaHAHA

WE ARE SWENSEN SUPPORTER !!! Ate finish den rmb to take photo, Lolx imagine how delicious it is =X

Ke lian de Bii Bii ! Rashes hand !!

2009-04-28T02:15:00.005+08:00

27th April 09

Hmm... went to school as usual, first day as a attachment manager haha i was so sotong... hmm after school ends was around 5.30 and i went back home.

to change and got a few minutes rest den meet bii. went to causeway together and have our dinner at swensen. xD after that we went to walk around. hmm nth to be bought and causeway is a one-word describe location ( SIAN ) lol. haha. Bii was so cute when the ice cream came.. she came " wahaha " but the expression she gave was so lovely that in my heart i almost faint.

hahaha. bii i love u. and i wana tell u that, i hab never blame u for all those things that u was fed up with. =D because i noe u would have a reason behind it and i noe how u feel... DRINK MORE WATER LA. WEATHER IS HOT EASY GET SICK !

2009-04-27T12:15:00.003+08:00

Wrapping my Kor's birthday Present at Toast Box.[ Yesterday ]

Went Sakae-ing with Bii... Snapped un-attention-ed we ate Udon noodles. oh god it makes me bloated. =(

Before i went to meet bii, i went bowling with Friends. its fun but expensive =(

last few weeks i enjoyed alot being with my baby. thanks alot baby. she makes my life fullest. thanks bii. the happiest moment she gave was on the 25th of this month. =) we went to shop for presents for mother's day. she bought a key pouch for my mum and i was..i duno wad to say as i din even bought anything for my mum....and we went to swensen for dinner =) after that we went home..she waited for my mum home and gave her the present. after that we slept.. she went home at 10 plus...

Sunday,
which is yesterday hmm..i met biibii at 6 and we went to shop for birthday presents for my bro's birthday... we bought perfume of burberry which copst $52 ! i shared the amount with darling and after that we went to look for wrappers. we went to Sakae Sushi and have our dinner. it was great ya, after that we slack at toast box.bii, she wrap the present there. but she was unsatisfied in the end and ended up when we went home she wrapped again and waited for my bro to come home and gave him. heh. thanks baby. i love you.

certain things that make me felt quite moody. hais. baby, u might read this some day, but i just wana tell u, As long as Earth is still turning, my love for u will never die. i might be quiet. ya i find tat myself too. i'll changed and be more open-minded k.

2009-04-21T22:04:00.002+08:00

OMFG ! its been 3 weeks ever since i last posted. omg. its not wad i wanted, so, realli sorry about it guys. haha dun ask where i have gone. hmm its a bad experince. but tats wad i have gone thru and its gonna be the last time im going off for a STRAIGHT 3 WEEK. damn alot of things happen since i came back. haiis. relationship is still going fine but its between my relationship and Friendship..sian...anyway, im back into action !!

2009-03-30T16:32:00.002+08:00

omg its so fucking bored man...
hmm well this few days i have been waking up late in the afternoon.. have been going out on the mid of the night with my darlin. Went to to eat, slack and talk. ha. as im a more quiet person so i din realli talk much. she does almost all the talking ba and i just listen. lolx. so freaking bored anyway. and causes her to not attend work for many days. awww sorry honey. xD anyway is quite bored now that i dun noe wad to do,,.den thought of blogging..nth much to post also no pictures haha. okay la i go watch movie le so bored =(

2009-03-26T02:51:00.000+08:00

Cool isn't it?

2009-03-26T02:44:00.003+08:00

alot of things have been happening around us. i dunno why and how did it become like that... in my r/s, and in my family matters too. all mess up and fucked up. tat was past few days. everything was quite maintain for now...but not in my r/s =( my mum juz picked on her and i duno why.. just now i have a talk and ask why she have to do all this. talked to her and told her all the things about her and not those fucking aunties below my flat keep gossiping when they dun even fucking noe anything about my girlfriend. my mum felt very very sorry and i noe darling, whats said is already said. but can u gib my mum 1 more chance?it wont happen anymore like this. i promise. i swear-ed. she done all this because she dun realli understand u yet and just now i have a talk with her and she felt quite bad about that. yeah and i noe its quite hurting when she blow those words on u. but whats over is already over. tomorrow is alway a new day. can u not think so much about it and dun put it into ur heart please?

2009-03-25T04:26:00.003+08:00

A Picture I edited in school with Photoshop of ME and Darlin.WILL BE GOING FOR EMO STYLE NOW. Reaching For what i'm Searching For. Alway wanted.

1 of my birthday Pics. lazy to post others so... there's still more coming up =)

2009-03-13T00:32:00.004+08:00

Hais keep on thinking about Tomorrow, im very scared, im afraid i cant see my friends any more. i dun wan ! i dun wan to spend my 18th Birthday Inside. hais..God, hope u bless me with Hope. i'll change my way..

Some Random Pictures of Myself....

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ALAN !!! ALWAY BROS !

Can u Spot mE? xD

Went To Court. Acc my friends. After that i Went down to Style my hair and den Rush down to Alan's Birthday Celebration xD

Some Of the Pictures on Yang Chong and Xiao Zhu Luo Zhi Xiang, haben fully upload finish yet. i haben got the pics from my friend's camera.

2009-03-09T03:07:00.005+08:00

7th March

Wow did u guys catch the SIngapore E award? that was cool onli on the last part man ! Xiao Zhu(Luo Zhi Xiang) dance damn cool man !!!! omg dun say im gay but is damn shuai la he dance i was stunned by amaze on his moves ! ahahaha. but they fucking tell lies saying Jay Jolin they all got come but in the end onli video of them Fuck. ahha i will upload pictures when i have got it from my friend.

8th March

Nth much...i slept til 3.30 like that den went downstair to accompany my friend and also give him back his things tat he left it on my house the other day. after that slack til 6+ like tat den i went to causeway with Rs and walk walk lo....hmm play-ed arcade and KEN lost my "onli-left" gold card. Sigh,, after i knew it i told myself i dun wna enter tat place anymore. be4 tat i saw SOMEONE also which i dun wana feel like see-ing...because, juz duno why sigh. i think i need time to calm myself down and i dun wana blog so much of such things anymore,it alway has been betraying me.

Every Minute every second i think of her, my heartache.
When i see her, my heart hurts. wad can i do...
i told myself when i was sleeping, STOP STOP STOP entering into my heart. it pains so much. i cant even control my droplets. A sorry cant mend a Broken Heart. If u juz have to say tat, all i can say is, im Sorry for Letting you catching hold of my heart. its my fault. its me who 自作多情. u dun have to apologies at all. =)

Dun worry, i wun post such stuff anymore, i will keep it to my very ownselve next time. Sigh.

2009-03-07T01:44:00.002+08:00

Whew, just back home from supper,was quite excited at first ya, cos get to sit on luxury car heex. get to go out so far away to eat.having a car is so convenient. din realli eat much...not much in the mood..when i juz board my elder brother's girlfriend's car, Xiao M message me saying she bleeded and felt like fainting...i get very worried, juz cant calm myself down, wanted to ask them to stop the car and let me down to find her but din noe how to tell them...haiiis...no mood since then..went there keep on thinking how is she and i was, unable to feed myself den. So juz drank milo and then after that we came back le...told her to go slp first after medication. Hope she gets better tml....haiis.

wad if something happens to her...wad's going to happen to me?

2009-03-06T02:12:00.002+08:00

Today hmmm woke up at 10+ and was preparing to go school....after i prepared was about 11.30 which i duno should i go anot cos go also onli for 2 hours...hmm den when i was on my way walking to mrt station, Xiao M message me if i wana go Bugis...hmm well, as nth to do in the afternoon i went wid her. but den after tat a call came from my family saying that there's some problem at home...i din noe wad to do..haiis.i realli dun wana spoil the outing...but den hais at last i cab her back to woodlands...felt so bad about it uh. after that when im coming home i heard that she is sick...due to the weather i guess. duno why but i juz get damn worried when i noe she's sick..sigh. wad am i thinking uh, am i thinking too far?i hope no...i am now in a mess, im very confuse. but..i dun think i hab a chance to be wid her anyway, she wun wan me isnt it? when i go out wid her i see her phone keep ringing with guys message or guys phone call, i get damn fuck-up. just duno why, hais.. i will upload some pictures some other day.

2009-03-05T01:35:00.002+08:00

just Came back from downstairs coffee shop...actually dun wana go down den aiya go down accompany my parents lo. haha eat fish ball den drink horlick den come back le xD. will continue tomorrow bahz....

hais...realli duno wad to do...i dun wana put down, let go...but is she willing to gib me a chance?im different from other guys...i juz wana seek for a stable relationship and settle down....why is it so hard?hais...

2009-03-04T20:52:00.002+08:00

This few days sucks.....nose had been dripping like mad, like water tap...argghz. today went school.. when taking the re-test, nose keep dripping arghz. sorry to my friends that i have used up all of your tissue. hais...sick now,who's gonna care for me?....finished up my project and there's 2 more power point left now...

i noe im nt gonna be the dream man she is gonna wan. sent her a msg in the morning and i knew it..haiss....sad sad..hard to find some1 like her,or am i going to wait for her?chnage for her?hais.. confuse.,

2009-03-04T03:23:00.000+08:00

RANDOM PICS TOOK JUST NOW xD

2009-03-04T02:50:00.003+08:00

SORRY FOR NOT BLOGGING ! WAS RUSHING SCHOOL PROJECT !! wtf....teacher say no holiday for us...because of Attachment. Fuck it. thats boring when people are all Enjoying their holidays while my class will be in school, Starring at the Computers all that...Roar !

dun mind telling you people, This Few Weeks on Saturday i was out with a Girl. Feelings has develop and i was drowned deeply into her ocean. i think im never gonna be her Dream guy...hais. i have no confidence in myself thus she keep saying she admire this and that guy..when i heard, i felt sad. and i just kept it to myself without letting her noe. Plus i alway get damn Jealous when she is mEssaging with or Chatting on phone with Guys. its been ages since i ever had this kind of Feeling. and i hardly place all my trust on some1. She is the 1 that makes me once again put my trust on her. Hopefully i din Misplace my trust, how i hope she could give me a chance...When she Told me that she will be my Listening Ears ALWAY, i guess i already noe the answer already...haiis. meaning good fren?close fren?

2009-03-04T01:52:00.004+08:00

Actually i didnt noe about this ya, my friend called me up and i rush down to causeway, at first they told me S.H.E and i was not realli interested hahaha. Until they mention Liang Wen Ying den i rush down straight lolx din even care about my hair sytle and i just Rush down hahaha. and i Got the tickets To the SINGAPORE ENTERTAINMENT AWARD xD. If without me i think my friend also wun get lo hahaha. cos im into this kind of Idol thing de so they call me come is right de if not they also wun get the tickets for the SEA(Singapore Entertainment Award) lo hahaha !

Short hair liao... =(
Its Been long Since we are so united =)

FAMILY REUNION DINNER !

PRIMARY SCHOOL GATHERING OF REUNION DINNER !!

2009-01-11T02:30:00.003+08:00

Went out around 2 To cWp to meet up with friends den went down to buGis... haha went to sim lim and saw lots and lots of electronic shop. haha shop and shop and eat...around 9+ we went back woodlands....slack awhile til 11 i go off as my mum nags at me...reach home and saw 2 television was on....wad the... MJO AND SCV ! wa lao how to watch sia both Subscriber gt so many channel to watch... my mum went slp and i was like...ScV got Huang Fei Hong den MJO got Movie. lols..i Jitao on both Tv and watch both place hahaha...my bro reach home..and was like, Stunned at me. seeing me watching 2 tv hahahaha. hao ba i dun type so much le i go watch tv le k ! haha

2009-01-06T01:11:00.004+08:00

MAYDAY ROCKS LAH !

5th OF JANUARY ! the concert was host on 4th and the Qian Chang Hui is on the 5th ! i went for both and the shirt i wearing was designated By ASHIN ! haha xD the signature right Most Bottom de is ASHIN de xD. Guan You was not able to make it for both event as his relative has just pass away and he was needed there, sad that couldnt get his signature and get to see him =(

2009-01-05T02:13:00.005+08:00

MAYDAY ROCKS !

2009-01-05T01:51:00.002+08:00

Hey People ! just came back home and bath le ! hahaha went for MayDay's Concert just now ! WonderFUL ! Hilarious ! BeautiFul ! wahaha ! so fun and Exciting, Hot of cos, even Ashin also say haha ! hmm the Picture Most of them is with my friend uh. From my phone take de alot NEVER save omg i wana cry man. but my friend took most of the video hmm sadded my picture and Video oh cry ='( well picture i have i will have it on another post ya. xD but 1 of them nv come due to one of his relative was heavily sick... They are wonderFul ! Ashin was cool ! we reach there at 3+ and already many people is queue-ing. =( but the place we get was not so back also. is consider the front xD. Nice concert. all i can say. When we ended, it was around 11+ cos canot get bus so walk to Kallang MrT. but train service ended =( so we took cab home. i was first to reach home cos nearest from the End of HighWay. reach home i msg them to tell them ask them take cab to home ha cos night le dangerous. hmm okay bah tml got sch i will get the pic from my fren tomorrow and post again. but most of his is video so maybe i will post video ya? Nights ! Mum, i wun go home late anymore k.

2009-01-03T04:44:00.006+08:00

this 2 days i were home for the whole day. Surprise?haha. long time since i have ever behave like dis haha. hmm just now i was watching Yu Le bai Fen Bai. was laughing til my ass out, and i admire his talent. the singapore guy named 黃靖倫 who went to taiwan to participate in One Millian Star which is also known as 超級星光大道. omg his voice is freaking power. he sang the 对的人 and he can Pull up to the highest ! the oh~ omg how i wish i got his voice.ABOVE IS THE VIDEO ! watch til reaching the middle there got he sing 对的人 From his opinium on why he participate in taiwan's competition is because, He finds that in singapore he is wasting his time, Joining Super star all that, even if got the champion onli get to act in mediacorp for afew shop and thats all. thats wad im thinking too. he cant perform or became famous in singapore with his talent. Now he is famous, omg somemore his albums are out ! omg man.. really admire his talent... even the last part of the song which the original singer pulls til the highest note, he can do it too. somemore the original singer is a SHE(Female) not s.h.e. his voice is freaking power man. When i grow up i wana go to taiwan too ! theres the future im aiming to have.

2009-01-02T17:49:00.002+08:00

Long long time since i ever blog hur ! SORRY ! Above was both me. hmm Give some comment on the white chatbox which type of me look nicer ya? the left is now. the right is the past, the memories. hmm dis few days quite okay la....just cant go out after 10..sadded. but i still went out around 1am or 3am. ahha went downstair to buy food. also nobody noe. roar. still dun let me out? lalala i dun care roar ! MAYDAY Concert is Coming soon. i ain't gonna care about the 10pm go home thing le. i wana watch finish the concert den go home. wahahaha ! Hopefully those idiots dun come my house to check.

2008-12-09T02:14:00.001+08:00

My Ang Kong.. muahahahaha !. on my wrist. hmm how ur think about it? nice?
NO LA. haha my friend use Pen draw de. some more is malay ehs. who write this chinese word. hmm gib soem comment uh !

2008-12-09T01:53:00.000+08:00

take a few days ago but haben got a chance to post

2008-12-09T01:35:00.003+08:00

Last few weeks. have been following my brothers around, Slack, BBq and etc. Friends ask me, why am i such a changed person, i couldnt answer them. Drowning myself with carlsberg. dun wana think so much. but i just cant. Read her blog. she say mess up, but now she is clear. clear of wad?hais. Why? met her few days ago, asking me to fetch her home. spent $30+ juz to cab her home and got myself home. baby JUST WAD ARE U THINKING? i'm afraid i cant hold on any longer. can u stop ur DRINK DRINK DRINK and talk to me just in a while?have u ever think of me?u drink drink drink happy...ever thought of me?im down here sorrowing with tears. cant u take a glance at me? meet u, dun wana tell me dun wana talk to me about anything. why cant u just clear up all dis mess? do u noe im damn fucking troubled by all this things? a girlfriend who dun wana talk to her boyfriend. wtf

2008-12-05T02:46:00.002+08:00

This Few days, i hab been feeling very down. nth much to think about....Mood have been running away from me. it seems as if my soul hab left my body...hais. Girl, will u stop running away from me? We should share everything together. Hardship or to wealth. we are in this together. i...duno wad to do..can reach u. cant contact u. cant hear ur voice. im in a lost now...can u tell me wad to do? People hab been telling me not to think about it, cos they dun wana see me this way...thanks friend. but..i just cant get back to normal, i just cant smile.i cant bring myself to smile when i myself my heart is not smiling. People say im silly,saying why am i clinging on when u dun even care about me. but i dun care. i noe u doesnt want it this way, u got your own reason. can u tell me whats wrong?. we can overcome this together de. have confidence in yourself can my girl? i wana grab u tight no matter what happen. i wana share everything with u. i wan to be with you forever. iF u need time to settle down your schedule, i can wait. no matter how long, i can wait. u ask, how long can i hold on, the answer i can gib u is, all the way til death. my girl, can u not give up yet?i dun wana lose u..i realli dun wana lose u. i love u, truly, i nv have such a strong feeling before. i felt pain, when u hang my phone. when it din even get thru and im being hang up by u. its even more painful den a needle is being poke thru my heart. Give yourself a chance and me a chance alright? i can wait, giving u time to manage your time, we dun have to meet everyday. we can meet when you are on ur off day. to go out. to eat, to play, to slp, to drink. GIRL: i love u, Hoping You Will Read This...frm the bottom of my heart. Stop Running away from me will ya?

2008-12-05T02:41:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 7+ which is quite early on wednesday. rush down to school for exam. weet. after exam, i rush to J8 to look out for MAYDAY album. cos i wanted the concert ticket. after that cant find...den Niece called up saying her sch gt sell so rush straight down to get it. and got the album wahaha !

2008-12-02T23:39:00.003+08:00

its quite a boring day today....damn boring...being alone at home, until when 2 to about 3 tat time chuan call me ask me go back sch for a test. sian diao...worn home clothes and fly to sch....with a uniform just to enter the sch. took the test, tcher say if i no nid take also can pass.. due to my attendance...WTF. go for sch for nth...but its okay la. can add more mark..haha den after that acc them slack at j8 awhile den go off le..reach home...head damn pain...den now having fever. roars.
went causeway, fren ask me acc him eat. after that went home...head damn pain body damn weak sia....wonder wad happen to me. hmm.

girl, i duno wad to say, we hasnt been contacting each other for 2 days. dun u find it weird?
dis cant go on forever, shouldnt u spare a thought for me?yeah i noe u're working.. but dun u even hab a free time?u called, juz to ask something, tats all. i duno wad u're doing. i onli feel that dis shouldnt go on forver, i noe u're hardworkin, but shouldnt u think of me?u can say i think too much ba, but dun u think we're drifting a distance?i dun wan tat to happen.

2008-12-02T02:20:00.000+08:00

2008-12-02T02:14:00.002+08:00

okay hmm yea went to school for nothing, wtf. got cheated by teacher. roars. so juz went there, play game den go off le... tat was lame.... after that do nothing.. rot at home omg looking at the wall of my home...i noe tat was lame...went for jogging at 7. meet up with andre, he was fast. omg i cant catch up lolx. reach home at around 8.30 den bath til 9 omg tat was wonderful, bath for half an hour haha den after that went out to send my fren "CHOCOLATE" yea oh yah be4 tat in the afternoon i went to buy 2 VOODOO DOLL haha i will post it right on top on the next post ya? haha... hmm den after that slack around admiralty til 1+ den cab home... the red cab looks like coca cola cab de drives damn fast ehs i like it man. at least dun feel like vomiting. the 2 VOODOO DOLL is an item haha.. hmm i hanged 1 on my phone. another 1...bleahx when got chance den gib bah

2008-12-01T21:15:00.004+08:00

hmm lets not talk about today first...how about yesterday?haha hmm woke up around 12, den wash up and went off to meet up wid my friend, hmm it was kinda boring. after that we went off to blk 19 to sit and chat...yawn i almost fell asleep there. after that warren saved me haha he called up for cigarette. using that excuse i went off to causeway to meet up wid him...played game for free cos its sample.....den around 6. suppose to meet dear at 4. she told me she will be late hmm yah. waited for her and she told me to go by myself. well, duno wad she's up to but i guess she's gt her own reason. well, i dun doubt her =) she met me around 9+... bleahx.. sit by the sea...Girl, i was quiet, yes but in my mind alot of things is running thru. i hab lots of things to tell u but i just duno how to start off with. hmm she told me she is going off in awhile, well, tat puts a sad word on my face. how i wish i could spent more time wid her. but i noe i cant, cos she's working and she gt lots of fren to accompanied wid, not onli me =) got her a jacket when we was sitting by the sea, the breeze from the sea was cooling. sent her for cab and i was bored again...haha GIRL I NOE WAD U SEND MY FRIEND XD! THANK U DEAR. loves u loads. awaiting for the next outing ya? but u hab to organize ur time le cos i duno when u off, so i cant realli ask u out. u hab to make a space for us k =) i will be waiting. we go shopping next time. bring u go eat good good de xD.
she came, i feel contented, of cos not fully, cos it past just like a minute. if she were to be wid me the whole night. =) but ya, i hab to think of her so...realli hope next time would be a longer outing ya?xD okay .

2008-11-28T16:06:00.002+08:00

firstly, a thousand sorry to my girl, shouldnt hab lost my temper yesterday, i guess its a misunderstanding ba. because i din state where am i going to gib my friend things. so i apologies for my mis-words.

yea ppl. i just reach home frm school. its damn tiring man. guess muz be ytd nt enuf slp haha. went to school, wid home clothes haha. clear up some mess and den now im home. wanted to find dear but stomach pain so went home for a clear-up. by the time she already off so, msg her if she wanted to meet out for dinner. ya and now not realli doing anything so hmm...continue at night ya? edit blog first =D

2008-11-28T01:05:00.003+08:00

today woke up, damn tired dun feel like going to school sia. cos 12 jiu end sch le i 10+ reach there. den msg girl, she went for work... ask to meet later haha. back to sch, i clear up almost all the mess i haben been clearing. after that went to causeway point wid my group of laughter friend. look for job, but none. we going for mini toon head quarter tml for interview wee !
after that went home... get a change, bath and do my hair. ready to meet dear, so went off earlier to settle off my stuff. in the end we nv meet.... den i bang the EMERGENCY LIFT de door very hard.. cos...yes i admit im being very angry. because it feels like im being BOMB. and when i ask why she juz keep repeating the same thing which makes me get more irritated. But u shouldnt just went off so quickly. if u told me earlier u need a hair cut maybe i wun so angry. u telling me when we haben meet. den if we meet le u also need go off early ma?hais...i hab quit smoking, but just becase im too angry cant get anything to vend, onli the lift door, took a stick frm my fren....hais... anyway, forget it ya? Tml is alway a new day.. Girl, dun think so much can? dun alway need time to be alone, there's me. u can tell me anything, i will help. im not a small boy. dun see me by age PLEASE. my mind is matured k u gt anything juz tell me, its not onli ur problem, its OUR problem now.

2008-11-23T05:07:00.000+08:00

GirL, thanks for coming into my life. i trust u. i love u.

2008-11-23T03:34:00.001+08:00

Those hair was memory...booo cut away liao sad right haha.

had an class outing with photography Teacher xD lots of pics but nt full yet.

CLASS OWN ORGANIZED BBQ xD there's still alot of pics in my friend's camera, keep forgetting to get it frm him..

Liling mum's Birthday ! haha WEE ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

COUPLE

HALLOWEEN NIGHT ! WENT TO S.A.M ( SINGAPORE ART MUSUEM )Theres many things to have a grab on photograph

WE THREW AWAY OUR SHOES FOR THIS STUPID EVENT ! ROAR !

2008-10-30T00:35:00.001+08:00

guys, recently will be add less pics and post lesser alrights. went to a fcuking barber shop. CUT TIL MY HAIR looks sucks now. will be MIA-ing from places too. DUE TO THE EFFECT of my hair. thanks

2008-10-27T08:23:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl ! sry for the long updates ! haha recently my phone was almost lost hmmm thanks to miss kailin for keeping my phone for me xD. hmm yup but the 1 im using it now i cant find the usb cable so cannot upload pics SRY PPL ! when i find or when i borrowed i will upload more pics alright... anyway im going to cut my hair sad sad... i will upload and let ur see the different k xD

2008-10-11T00:49:00.003+08:00

today woke up, den go causeway meet my sis Xiao M. hmm today was a bad day.. Sorry Xiao M keep left u alone. because of some personal stuff. realli sorry. i promise i wun left u out alone le k. my fault. my bad. although u din say anything, but i can see from ur face...hais. nth went wrong til 4.40 when our show was about to start.. some1 called up ask me to go down and get something, hais show juz start and i hab to go collect the things. came back at the cinema at 5.15...den watch til 6.05, another call came. saying my fren was in some trouble, i was...mess up on my mind, i told her, erm i gt some urgent things to do...hais.. spoilt her mood again...hais..i felt just so useless.. before that we went shopping, she shoppin for gift for her bf. i duno why my mood just went moodless. but den i force my mood back and den entertain her.. can say wad just say..haiis. think im getting worse. but at least i get to see her smile when i talking rubbish to her. haiis. im poor, im jobless, will she like me?or shall i just hide my feelings and tou tou de ai ta? see her happy?be there for her?juz to be a bro?haiiis. each time she told me wad she did wid her ex be4 or stead, my heart start cracking into pieces...but i just hold on and put on a smile infront of her..

2008-10-09T02:19:00.003+08:00

honestly, i duno wad m i thinking dis few days....can somebody tell me?hais...can i onli love somebody secretly?because i hab lost all my courage in asking for hands of a girl. Seriously, can somebody tell me wad am i thinking?

When the image of the girl keep appearing in ur heart/mind
When Every moment every seconds u wish she would appear be4 u
When handphone rang, how u wish it would be her .
When u din hab enuf sleep, but yet climb up in few hours sleep, juz to go out wid her
When she's talking about her bf, u became silent, duno wad should be spoken
When she's looking for things for her bf, u became moodless, but yet help her to look for it Hidding ur Expression.
When every morning u wake up, the first person u would think of is her
When Every Morning, The first person u would message is her, sometimes without knowing it.
When every time she calls, u would rush down juz to meet her for juz a few seconds.
When every single day, u would ask her if she's taken her meals.
When Every Single day, days would be bored without contacting her.
When ever handphone rang, u would rush to it to see if its her.
When every second every minute, u're missing her, but yet cant get to see her, mood could be Emo-ed.

People, can tell me am i falling in love?oh my, all i can do is secretly loving her, doing things behind her...because, i hab no confident...

2008-10-08T08:08:00.005+08:00

Taken This Few Pics With Xiao M sis. haha the 1 with my bros she took for us de i like tat 1 haha ! can see my back spike xD the first pic also. emo pic, cant see my face. onli my hair xp taken 2 wid her at the carpark cos nth to do haha. after that went to 131 coffee shop eat big meal lolx forget to take picture so...too bad xD

Taken Yesterday....Accompany Xiao M to salon, she wash her hair. haha almost fall asleep down there cos onli slept for 3 hours last night. so took few piCs...

Taken quite few weeks ago, Went to Suntec with classmate...

2008-10-08T08:00:00.002+08:00

This few days....keep going out, spend quite some amount of money... Especially eating... play, all dis hmm...dis few days round, can say maybe is because my feelings came quite fast bah. but.. i duno. i think i had fallen for someone. i was hiding it all the time, because im afraid of rejection, i also gt a feeling tat, wo pei bu shang ta. because the way i saw her spend money, i feel tat im nt rich enuf...but i can gib her all i hab..although i cant pay for her. i can gib her a content heart. should i confess or no?should i woo her or no?

2008-10-06T02:12:00.004+08:00

STUPID SEBAST TOLD US TO GO WORK IN THE MORNING, IN THE END NO WORK. MEET LE WARREN DEN NOE. SO WE WENT TO SALON AND CUT HAIR. I DIN CUT MUCH. I ONLI CUT SHORT MY TOP AND BACK-TOP. took some pics =)

2008-10-06T02:05:00.002+08:00

RanDom PICS
AT NIGHT WE WENT BUGIS. WALK WALK. EAT DINNER DEN PLAY POOL. Xiao M went home first cos she got Doctor Appointment.

METT XIAO M FOR PIZZA HUT BREAKFAST ANS IT CAUSE US $40.13 LOLX. actually was intending to go Party World but she haben got her pay so no $ yet so we went for PIZZA HUT.

2008-09-29T16:40:00.002+08:00

LAST WEEK

Went To Play ppl around 9.30 til 10.30 den we went Meet Joanne....den after that WE MISS THE LAST TRAIN ! sian...den bo bian.,.. we from AMK RIDE BIKE BACK TO WOODLANDS ! pro ehs haha when we reach, we alight frm bike and stand wa leg very soft sia hahaha dun think dirty hor... is because too long to stand..den we walk like jelly leg haha... Went To Neo Print Shop... Took some Pics but nt with the machine. hahaha save money we use our Hp to take haha.Got more but i din collect it from my fren.

Went To Bugis With 2 of my class mate....haha took some Pics...

2008-09-28T14:55:00.002+08:00

Never Style hair looks so ugly ! after work de look haha. hmm there's still post below...

Holiday Came...but have wasted 1 week at home....sad but ytd i went to work. A Wedding dinner work. haha being a waiter.. keep refilling drinks for Guest. sian right haha wa lao see their food also feel like eating sia =( den after that get pay lo hmm.. is a daily pay. gt $28 haha. den after that went to 167 eat..my classmate went off first... den i wnet to eat with my friends. lolx. den after that went home orh orh liao haha. On Top got some pics we took =)

2008-09-21T03:16:00.003+08:00

Ops. Sounds so Fierce. heh. People dun mind k =) i onli treat Whoever gives me such attitude Like dis... bleahx... cos, they dun deserve me to be nice to them =) they juz sux dun u think so?

2008-09-21T03:06:00.003+08:00

hey the one using the nick :) in my tagBoard, Why muz i be alone den muz becareful?u onli attack people when they're alone? Dun u think u're MAKING URSELF SO so damn COWARDS? if u're making trouble here, pls, dun let me find faults in ur english, ur english sux like hell u wan talk to me? save it pls. or tell u wad, watch my back when im alone?come find me if u can when im alone. i STAY IN WOODLANDS. RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR U TO COME. asshole. dun talk big in my blog. i hate it. watch my back watch my back -.- sorry la i look back also cant see u k.

U'RE JUZ TOO SMALL NOT EVEN WORTH A FLY FOR ME TO SEE !

2008-09-21T02:30:00.004+08:00

Was Sick Last Week. Now still hab Sore Throat. Sad... Hard to swallow Things. sad sad.. pain ! hmm anyway, im having holiday now bleahx !

19th September. Went To EasT CoasT. Taken Pics in the buS. =) nothing realli happen much so i din realli hab much post or much pics....

RanDom Pics !

TakeN When Going East Coast today. 19th September.

Tat Was For Mid Autumn Festival ! Celebrate at blk 400+ With Friends And Accompanies. =)

YonG Yi's Birthday, Went KboX in the Afternoon den nighT we go find him eat dinner celebrate together xD !

2008-09-01T14:00:00.002+08:00

DIS POST IS FOR YESTERDAY !

hmmm....woke up at 9.30, was pull up by alan. asking me to go eat breakfast..i agree, den we went eat.. den after that go casueway..(with sleepy mood) haha. den after that stayed quite awhile den we went home lerh.. xD den after that

i reach home fall asleeep again haha ! was msging halfway with SherrY . den when i woke up was about 5.30 like tat.. den msg her if wana have dinner together =) she nearly 6 like tat den msg me ehs. den i bath le rush down... LUCKY NO LATE ! HAHA. den in her shop wait for her... cos her college still eating. after i ask her wan eat wad she duno duno aiyo. den she bring me to get her JunkFood -.- make me so hungry =(

but its okay la haha being able to eat dinner with her is already a blessing haha. after that bring her back to her shop dne i went to Time Zone to play game... Play halfway saw my friend haha. den after that SherrY Called me again --.-- ask me go her shop help her fix back the messy alphabet --.-- dne i tell her,

1 alphabet 50cent haha SherrY GoH where my Pay?

haha after that i went off to find my friend le leaving her to be lonely xP den after that went slack wid my friend til 7am den go home sleep at about 8+ hmm.....now so tired =(

2008-08-19T21:28:00.008+08:00

Temporarily Put pics First....Will type more when i'm free k =D takEcare. Anyway is frm below view to top de the pic den u will noe wads happening =)

2008-08-16T00:00:00.002+08:00

hmmm today in sch.....did nothing much actually..hmm den after tat a friend of mine came to us(Gamer) with his psp, he gab us a Pokemon game, haha we pass it thru the whole roll and the whole roll of us(Gamer) played pokemon..hahaha no more cs but POKEMON ! haha frm 2pm, we started playing, completing all the quest and leveling up, til 4.45 which is about the whole lesson we were playing tat game haha

and oh ya, in the mid of the lesson, our CA, class advisor came in and told us that our class morale has drop since dis term, giving us 2 piece of paper, for filling in complain or suggestion about the lecturer, den we wrote alot, wad i wrote was

Attendance for late comers were not marked, CAUSING US TO GET WARNING LETTERS !
WilFred, getting students to cut hair when it is already very short, BIASED

After school, i went to cut hair....actually was to cut, but when i ask abt reborn, it seems quite cheap and, so i reborn, din cut much hais monday go back school gonna kena nag again liao...

2008-08-13T23:56:00.002+08:00

haha dis few days keep wearing home clothes to school hur hur !
cos the lab lesson teacher dun care wad we wear de cos we 5 hour in lab . =)
den i influence a friend also haha he now also alway wear home clothes wid me liao haha..

the day be4 yesterdat, Spend $175.20......
u people guess where i spent it on ba.....

i spent it on

a Skinny
a Formal Top
a Vest

Just like dis eh, $175 gone hais sadded.

hmm today we change to a new teacher, which is some1 we dun like, but its better la cos he noe more abt tat subject unlike the past teacher, teach us de so complicated, the Kenny take 1 glance onli 3 step finish liao the past teacher teach de so many step..

2008-08-12T01:07:00.007+08:00

Reached Home.. around 11+ hmm....Squeezing like fucking hell just to get to take 5-10 minutes photo of Firework..hais...people people u think dis is call Stupid?Silly?Worth it? After that, went to duno call wad plaza, straight up frm cityhall Mrt de escalator de shopping centre there eat... haha wa the Mee Pok the chilli like free de sia. gib so alot...i eat le cannot tahan.. den alan go buy he eat also eat til very jialat hahahaha the uncle gib chilli like gib children sweet eh free de haha

End oF My FireWorK PhotO ! STudpid ! the last 1 i miss.. the last 1 is the most beautiful 1. i tot end le den i walk halfway POM ! sian diao no time to even shoot....

Just......Scenario....
Dis was Taken on the bridge, Which links up marina SQ and cityhall Mrt.

NearesT FastFood Restaurant we could find was SubWay. Eat bread. i din eat, as i din have any appetite..i was the onli Extra so all i could do is take photo...

We Reach Esplanade Outside...We've Got 11 people, by dis time there wouldn't be any space in fastfood Restaurant. So we Divide ourselve, actually 3 Group, but i follow the 4 person which makes us a 5 in a group. And we Set oFF to eaT.

At The UnderPass whiCh Links Us to Esplanade.

IN DA TRAIN ! JourneY tO TowN For the WorsT FirewoRk EveR !

Pics Below Were takeN oN WoodlandS Mrt Station. While Waiting For train.

2008-08-05T00:44:00.002+08:00

SEARCHING FOR LINKS OF MALE BLOGSHOP ! PLS UPDATE ME WITH LINK YA? THANKS ! NOT T-SHIRT. BUT FORMAL OR NICE OUTGOING OUTFITS ! THANKS !

2008-08-05T00:23:00.002+08:00

Hey readers ! sorry to kept u people waiting ! my internet was down for weeks ! and i cant get to come online to post wad i need ! and so i also forgotten loads...sadded...

well, i'm getting fed up with the new teacher teaching us. i everyday went to school, but he dun seems to hab mark my attendance. wtf?everyday go but still kena warning letter of attendance low? wad logic is dis?diao....and he can, if he catching a movie with another class student, he juz let us off early and neglected our work. wad a teacher ! he teach? wad he teach? tell us afew things den sit there press phone do nth? eh fuck off la.The position "TEACHER" is not suitable for u la. go back to ur industry la... go back to ur malaysia la Mr K M L.

2008-07-15T04:25:00.002+08:00

i think i'm gonna be dead man...reach home ytd at 8+ and i juz collapse on my bed....was awaken at 1am, cant slp anymore. die die afternoon sure become zombie de...hmm..went downstair to eat...den after tat went back home den sue comp lo nth to do wor....den came here to post norh in case it become rotten haha... yawn yawn...schools are tired man... 10 hour of schooling man. it kills ones mind....siian...wondering if i should go back sleep...hmm cos i am afraid that

if i go back slp

i cannot wake up for sch.
late for sch.
miss lesson

den if i dun go back sleep lei.....

afternoon die.
cannot concentrate in class
reach home collapse again den same consequences

omg how man?some1 tell me pls...or should i not slp ?den i tahan til night den slp?but i at home sure will sleep de lei....sadded....how how....aiyo.....

hais i think i dun wan slp le la....tolerate the tiredness til night den slp cos tml de lesson starts at 10 i tolerate til night 10 den i can sleep long long liao xD will post in school later =D